Oh, you're in my veins, and I cannot get you out,
Oh, you're all I taste, at night, inside of my mouth.
Oh, you run away, 'cause I am not what you found,
Oh, you're in my veins, and I cannot get you out.
This is now one of my favourite songs, so glad I found it.
Friday, 14 October 2011
Sunday, 9 October 2011
far away
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
You know, you know.
In a nickelback mood.
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
You know, you know.
In a nickelback mood.
Friday, 7 October 2011
the reason why i smile
Last night I blacked out I think
What did you, what did you put in my drink?
I remember making out and then.. ohoh
I woke up with a new tattoo
Your name was on me and my name was on you
I would do it all over again.
Gotta love a bit of Avril Lavigne.
What did you, what did you put in my drink?
I remember making out and then.. ohoh
I woke up with a new tattoo
Your name was on me and my name was on you
I would do it all over again.
Gotta love a bit of Avril Lavigne.
Tuesday, 20 September 2011
so yahhh.
All I want is to feel better. Better about myself, better about school, better about where I am and where I'm going... For the first time in AGES, school is a real chore. Not because it's hard... If it was, perhaps my mind would be distracted a little more. It's because things are just different. I have to worry about what I'm wearing, where I'm going to sit (because only one of my classes is with a friend), whether the teacher will come up and ask why I'm sat on my own.
One of my maths teachers did that today. She asked me; 'Do you usually sit on your own?'... I know she didn't mean harm, but thanks for drawing attention to me. I told her no, I didn't. There's just no one in my maths class who I actually like to speak to, no one from my friendship group. And the annoying thing is, if I'd been placed in the other option block or twisted my options slightly, I WOULD have been.
And you know what? Then she asked me if I'd move into one of the other groups next lesson. I said yes, of course, just to get her away.
Had she not noticed that LAST lesson I'd sat with a group? Only this time I'd come in first, sat where I sat last time, and they all just waltzed over to a completely different table. I don't know what the fuck is up with me, but I wanted to cry right then and there. It's not fair.
I don't alienate myself on purpose. I don't sit apart on purpose. In fact, I make an effort to fucking sit WITH people. To make new friends, to socialise. I'm not WEIRD, I'm not HORRID. I don't have some sort of mental disorder, and neither am I insanely fat - which seems to immediately alienate you in my college. I'm not pretty. I'm not beautiful. I'm not perfect by far.
But I'm not a fucking alien either.
This whole entry sounds angry. But really, deep down in side, I'm just tired. Tired of being overlooked by boys, who see me as just another person. I want someone to cuddle up with and talk to. I had a chance, I guess, with S... but I fucked that one up. Majorly.
It's 23:59. 11:59...
Reminds me of the Ryan Star song.
Also, I have psychology homework to do still, so I am screwed.
I hope this shitfuckballthingyofalmightycrap gets better.
One of my maths teachers did that today. She asked me; 'Do you usually sit on your own?'... I know she didn't mean harm, but thanks for drawing attention to me. I told her no, I didn't. There's just no one in my maths class who I actually like to speak to, no one from my friendship group. And the annoying thing is, if I'd been placed in the other option block or twisted my options slightly, I WOULD have been.
And you know what? Then she asked me if I'd move into one of the other groups next lesson. I said yes, of course, just to get her away.
Had she not noticed that LAST lesson I'd sat with a group? Only this time I'd come in first, sat where I sat last time, and they all just waltzed over to a completely different table. I don't know what the fuck is up with me, but I wanted to cry right then and there. It's not fair.
I don't alienate myself on purpose. I don't sit apart on purpose. In fact, I make an effort to fucking sit WITH people. To make new friends, to socialise. I'm not WEIRD, I'm not HORRID. I don't have some sort of mental disorder, and neither am I insanely fat - which seems to immediately alienate you in my college. I'm not pretty. I'm not beautiful. I'm not perfect by far.
But I'm not a fucking alien either.
This whole entry sounds angry. But really, deep down in side, I'm just tired. Tired of being overlooked by boys, who see me as just another person. I want someone to cuddle up with and talk to. I had a chance, I guess, with S... but I fucked that one up. Majorly.
It's 23:59. 11:59...
Reminds me of the Ryan Star song.
Also, I have psychology homework to do still, so I am screwed.
I hope this shitfuckballthingyofalmightycrap gets better.
Wednesday, 8 June 2011
Monday, 2 May 2011
AHH.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
AHHHHH.
GRRR. GRRR. GRRR.
Majorly angry. Majorly pissed. Majorly everything.
Time to watch the Vampire Diaries; balm of my soul. WOOHOO. I'ma have to get myself one of those hot vampire boyfriends someday. Seriously...
Also, three weeks left until I finish school. Scary shiz, eh?
AHHHH.
Koralyn.
AHHHHH.
GRRR. GRRR. GRRR.
Majorly angry. Majorly pissed. Majorly everything.
Time to watch the Vampire Diaries; balm of my soul. WOOHOO. I'ma have to get myself one of those hot vampire boyfriends someday. Seriously...
Also, three weeks left until I finish school. Scary shiz, eh?
AHHHH.
Koralyn.
Sunday, 10 April 2011
Summer
Oh my days. It's so effing sunny! This is England, right, we never ever get sun!
Wow.
Sunbathing on the trampoline with my baby brother, yessir. And lot's of BBQ food and laughs. Y'know, this Easter break might not be so grim after all. There is, however, a distinct lack of shiz to do during the day.
Bounce on the trampoline... check.
Eat cereal... check.
Draw some random crap... check.
Go for a run on the treadmill... check.
Walk the dog... check.
Play a game... check.
Feed the fish... check.
Take my antibiotics... check.
And after all that shit, I have nothing left to do, and it's probably only just gone 11am. I'm going to have to think up a new workout thingy, 'cos that seems to be the only worthwhile thing to do right now.
Butt lifts, anyone?
K x
Wow.
Sunbathing on the trampoline with my baby brother, yessir. And lot's of BBQ food and laughs. Y'know, this Easter break might not be so grim after all. There is, however, a distinct lack of shiz to do during the day.
Bounce on the trampoline... check.
Eat cereal... check.
Draw some random crap... check.
Go for a run on the treadmill... check.
Walk the dog... check.
Play a game... check.
Feed the fish... check.
Take my antibiotics... check.
And after all that shit, I have nothing left to do, and it's probably only just gone 11am. I'm going to have to think up a new workout thingy, 'cos that seems to be the only worthwhile thing to do right now.
Butt lifts, anyone?
K x
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